Hold on don’t get off i am not writing anything about computers this time. I am sure at least a couple of all among all who know me will think of it as an article to get rid of xp crash message “NTLDR is missing, press any key to restart”. Yeah in fact just this message created a wave in my mind. So easy to write in software error messages “press any key to restart”, unfortunately we don’t have any key to restart our life. I understand its stupid to expect a restart, but i guess god could have done something like “restore points” where we could revert back to if things not going fine.
Personally i can feel what would be the most beloved restore point for every working engineer. A point to clarify what i mean by engineer is not software engineers, or engineers by degree. I refer to the brave-hearts who have cherished life for four years, those who didn’t give a damn shit to do anything perfectly but always managed things somehow and those who desperately want to restore back to those dad’s 7000 bucks pm days from even 10 times more.
But then whats missing that makes me think this and write this? I think this because i am not what i used to be. I write this as it easy to answer yourself while writing. I am sure every engineer goes through this toil, everyone must be asking this question “whats missing?”. Things have been amazing on professional front, it has been near perfect roller coaster ride. Made some really great decisions to follow the passion and it paid back without making me wait much. Got a dream workplace where i feel alive and this satisfaction is extra to good money. Still i am not happy most of the time, i don’t have anybody to fight. I have juniors but not the amazing ones like those old ones, so none to slap too. Once you get professional you have to think of whats right and wrong so i guess i miss that dictatorship of respect/love/fear when our decision was nothing but always opposite of enemies. i miss that hostel, i miss that company when other then bathroom we were never alone. I miss those days when for project my teammates used to pull me out of bed forcefully to go for classes(not for that they cared for me, but that they sometimes even didn’t knew name of project). Always making a halftime appearance in college that too in canteen and planning the evening. And yes i miss something i won but lost to a stupid wise decision, that’s what i miss the most i guess. Awwww i need that restore point, God why didn’t u create restore points.
Tags: vidhatanand, what's missing
